Chrysalis July 2018

It’s Not About Me!

I have been a little quiet these past few months. I am still here I promise! Many have reached out in love to check on me. Thank you. The prayers, texts, phone calls and hugs do not go unnoticed or unappreciated.

I have been pondering lots these past few months since Joe’s stage 4 cancer diagnosis. I have had some pretty intense conversations with God since the first of March. I have begged and pleaded with him to give me details of the journey that lies ahead. I want to know the upcoming details of the journey the most when I allow fear of the unknown to creep in. His answer each time I ask hasn’t changed. “My Daughter, if I were to tell you all the plans that I have for you and Joe on this journey, you couldn’t understand or handle it all now!” Trust me and remember I love you and you are never alone. I am here and I will never leave you nor forsake you. Yes God, I know I really do, but could you please just tell me? Please? And, all I hear him say is soon. Soon, in my little annoyed voice, what does that mean God?

Soon in your time what does that mean? And then it hit me…Susan, It’s not about me! I am asking my questions and being consumed by the “me” thinking. People ask me often how are you doing? How are you dealing with this? I am doing ok and I am dealing one moment at a time. But in reality, the plain and simple truth is that I am just a tiny speck on the big screen of life and only God has the capacity to see all of it. He saw all that came before us and sees all that will come after us, and only He can know the role that each of us can play that will best serve Him and each other.

So what, my life and Joe’s isn’t ideal by our standards right now. But it’s not about me or Joe. It’s about what He can do with our life. It’s about serving Him and each other. I have learned a lot about myself, my faith, and my perspective. Nothing about my life is about me; it’s about who He needs me to be.

And how can I complain about that! So as far as I am concerned, this journey that stretches me beyond what I think is my capacity to be stretched, in reality is a blessing in disguise. Walking into the cancer center allows me to bring His presence into a place of hardship and pain and bring light amongst the darkness. Others can see the smile and God’s love through our linked journeys and most times we do not even have to say anything. They feel God’s presence through a simple act of kindness or a simple hello or a simple smile because in that moment it’s not about me and our journey it’s about being the hands and feet of Jesus in their journey!

When I think of our community I think of Matthew 18:20 when Jesus said, “For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst.” Community is the people we love and the people that we come into contact with each day. These people that we love are in the community of our hearts and are those who are gathered with God in their hearts. Why and how can that be? Because we all share that common bond of love and belief! We are yoked together whether we are physically together or not. I truly believe that, because I have experienced it big and bold these past few months.

So what’s my point and how does it tie into our Emmaus community? Jesus told us to do this life together, as a community. And because of Him, there are no boundaries. There is only the common bond of belief and love. What are we to do with this common bond of belief and love?…go make disciples! Yep go! Our guest pastor Sunday said he believes there are 6 love languages and the 6th one is obedience. Yep obey…. go make disciples! Go invite our friends and strangers that cross our path to the next Chrysalis journey or the next Walk to Emmaus. Or even better, also do life with them! Invite them to coffee or dinner or to your next reunion group meeting. See their problem and be the answer. And I must pause and remember when they react not the way I feel they should, I should extend grace because remember it’s not about me! Community I love you big and you love us big! Thank you, for my heart is full and the blessings are there daily in the journey.


We have some exciting Chrysalis news! Our teams for our upcoming Chrysalis journeys are meeting and God is already moving in a mighty way amongst the teams! Young Women’s Journey #43 is fast approaching! August 30-September 2, 2018. Sarah Tucker is the LD. Please invite and send your applications to Kayla Watson 2610 Milwaukee Ave 14A Lubbock, TX 79407

Young Men’s Journey #35 is fasting approaching as well! September 13-16th 2018 Kelton Coleman is the LD. Send your applications to: Jonathan Bloxom 2722 Frankford Ave. Apt. 501 Lubbock, TX 79407 806-632-4764

We will be doing team selections soon for the 2019 journeys. If you want to be pray fully considered to work these journeys please reach out and let us know. We need you and Christ is counting on you!

Fly with Christ,
Susan Gillispie
Chrysalis Community LD